hmmm.. nothing been happening much lately.. Just a few tournaments that I played really shit in and I still end up winning some prizes.. haha.. I know its funny..

The scores are so embarassing that I can't tell u wat i shoot.. lol.. Poor Brad have to always listen to me nag after a bad day at golf... *hugs* Oh wells... Won alot of trophies and yer its all good.. Been partying alot as well.. which is BAD.. I need to start going back into the gym and be determine *laughs*! which I always fail to do it.. sigh sigh.. I always have questions going in my head.. Like.. " If I dun try to be skinny now.. I will be fat my whole life, therefore thus I have never been pretty in my life.. If when i got old and I am skinny then I wont be as pretty as how I should be when I was younger" Complicated? Yer.. I think so too.. I just think too much nonsenses sometimes. Oh well.. Maybe just Maybe I can try to be skinner~ n try to at least look a little bit hot.. haha...

Anyways, I had a totally Drunk ass weekend.. Cos of Harry's birthday.. People PLease remind me not to go drinking 2 nights in a row.. *DOH*.. All was fun though.. we went to play indoor golf and It was fun we are drinking Beer and playing golf in Aircon.. That's life. By the end of the game I am pretty much feel like floating when I am going to hit the ball.. lol~ N nope.. it didnt help me play better lol... After that we went to Brewrekz (however u spell it) for dinner.. Jesus.. its expensive.. Sorry Brad.. I didnt mean to pick the most Expensive restaurant.. it just happen to be expenive.. Make sense? :p .. Well.. I received flowers from Brad today.. but its electronic.. lol... I like it.. I really really do.. I think its really nice.. :) :) :) I am just so happy.. I am so easily please.. lol..

OH oh and Brad says that he wanna get me a Diamond ring instead of a life size teddy bear! YAY!! I mean.. I dunno I would love to have both u know.. but... I can't be greedy rights :-) So much happiness, I Heart Brad so much! *althought sometimes he is so freaking stubborn*:)

Anyways, another news update! I am gonna go full time golf in August.. Hopefully I can get a little bit better.. I giving myself 1 year.. If I am not feeling comfortable with the training or I am still struggling after 1 year.. it will be the end of Golf.. I mean I will still love golf but its not gonna be my career.. N I am very firm with my decisions. Let's just see wat happens! Maybe after one year of tedious training I will become a HOt chick and The modelling Agency wants me to Model all over the WORLDs!! Muahaha.. *Dreaming* Hey Expect the unexpected ;)

*HUgs n Kisses to My babe* :)

I am Sick Sick Sick... apart from that I am pretty much busy with golf.. Haven't been playing at RCC much cos of my wrist injury and the I got this bad cold.. Having fever and feeling down.. sigh.. Tomorrow there's a tournament at Sembawang Country Club.. Dunno how I will play.. sigh.. feeling so weak and sick that I havent really been practsing except for playing on Tuesday.

So not much been happening, just Preparing for tournament and being angry with my golf.. I know its just a game of Golf but sometimes I just couldn't get over it.. Didn't play Changi too well couldnt strike the ball properly.. sigh.. Even though I came in 2nd.. haha.. Oh wells.. Shit happens..

PLayed RCC Open on SAturday and the weather in the morning is horrible.. sigh.. PLayed alright until I shot 9 on the last hole.. Stupid I know.. but oh wells... I learn from my mistakes and definately not going to make it again. I wanna be more calm and less aggressive on the golf course.. I dun wanna be angry, I am just not that kinda person off the golf course.. Funny isn't it.. haha..

Well.. I been feeling very down lately.. just very negative and all.. SO everyone please bear with me.. or give me some confidence if u can.. Sometimes I just need assurance.. sometimes I just feel Insecure.. Maybe cos I am sick and I am feeling sorry for myself.. haha.. Its so Stupid.. How can I let myself think like that?..

ANyway, brought a PINK jacket yesterday.. PINK! yes P-I-N-K.. it look so cute.. haha.. Which I dunno if it really suits me.. I like the colour but.. People always see me as rough and boyish... so maybe I care too much of how people look at me and rarely do wat I feel good and happy about.. I am so easily effected by how people judge me and wat people say.. Sigh.. I came a long way for me to look like how I am now.. yet people still calling me fat.. I am serious.. I think the only person who think that I look ok is Brad.. *hugs* I hate being called fat u know.. I know I can do something about it.. but when I feel depress I eat, when I feel angry I eat.. when I feel Happy I eat, When i feel bored I eat.. haha and normally the wrong food. sigh.. I am going for Lipo SUcktion!

Well, think I should stop thinking and go jogging meow.. I know the doctor told me not to do anything to strainous.. So if I happen to Die out there.. Just wanna let My family knows that I love them lots and I woove BRad so much too... lol.. *hugs*

Wow.. What a Superb weekend I have.. Wheee!!



Friday we went to Jason's house warming... Very nice nice place.. on the 40th storey and very nice and cosy place. Becky the house dog was very nice and cute too!! it was so fun, we play Wiiiiiiii (i dunno how many i's it have :S) and think it cos of lack of golf for the past 1 week I got a sore right shoulder.. haha.. Yer.. so farnie (Deng Shan is a good golfer too and he say he get sore sholder as well! when playing wiii ).



Went to work on Saturday, work is usual and went to our modelling rehearsal at RCC.. was pretty much boring.. have to do it over and over again! n have to think about the moves we want to make when we are standing at the front.. gosh.. I think I will only start hitting the panic button when actually finish golf that day.. I REALLY BADLY want to win that tournamet.. MY swing feeling a little bit weird.. but I think I know wat went wrong but my wrist dun like it when I do the right thing so wish me lucks on Friday and Saturday.

ANyways, Saturday night was BRad's DJ'ing night.. It was pretty damn awesome! The crowd was pretty good.. N BRad thinks that my dress is nice.. which makes me really happy.. LIttle things like that make me the luckiest girl in the universe! :) Brad did well as usual.. Met up with ChiaHow and Amanda.. Had lots of yummy shot with Amanda! its was just awesome :) Yer, Had heaps of fun. didnt have a hang over on Sunday which is even better! Slept till really late though and cooked Japanese Beef Curry for BRad :) so all is good.. I am happy! :)

hmm today (yesterday) was a pretty good day had a sleep in went to work for a short meeting.. walked 9 holes. had a beer after golf, talk to my long time friend Deryne.. Had a good dinner and play stupid games and frisbee! It was a fun filled day... I am always happy when I have a busy and tiring day (exclude tiredness from work).. My face is filled with pimples.. SIGH.. :(

Oh oh and BRad is Playing in a tournament on SAturday... haha not exactly like a tournament la.. but it will be more competitive .. u will never know maybe will can get a hole in one and win US a car :) :) ... yeap.. US, WE, OURS.. must share the love! lol..

Yawns.. so tired now.. Think I shall sheep! CIaos :) :)

*Don't go*