I am Sick Sick Sick... apart from that I am pretty much busy with golf.. Haven't been playing at RCC much cos of my wrist injury and the I got this bad cold.. Having fever and feeling down.. sigh.. Tomorrow there's a tournament at Sembawang Country Club.. Dunno how I will play.. sigh.. feeling so weak and sick that I havent really been practsing except for playing on Tuesday.

So not much been happening, just Preparing for tournament and being angry with my golf.. I know its just a game of Golf but sometimes I just couldn't get over it.. Didn't play Changi too well couldnt strike the ball properly.. sigh.. Even though I came in 2nd.. haha.. Oh wells.. Shit happens..

PLayed RCC Open on SAturday and the weather in the morning is horrible.. sigh.. PLayed alright until I shot 9 on the last hole.. Stupid I know.. but oh wells... I learn from my mistakes and definately not going to make it again. I wanna be more calm and less aggressive on the golf course.. I dun wanna be angry, I am just not that kinda person off the golf course.. Funny isn't it.. haha..

Well.. I been feeling very down lately.. just very negative and all.. SO everyone please bear with me.. or give me some confidence if u can.. Sometimes I just need assurance.. sometimes I just feel Insecure.. Maybe cos I am sick and I am feeling sorry for myself.. haha.. Its so Stupid.. How can I let myself think like that?..

ANyway, brought a PINK jacket yesterday.. PINK! yes P-I-N-K.. it look so cute.. haha.. Which I dunno if it really suits me.. I like the colour but.. People always see me as rough and boyish... so maybe I care too much of how people look at me and rarely do wat I feel good and happy about.. I am so easily effected by how people judge me and wat people say.. Sigh.. I came a long way for me to look like how I am now.. yet people still calling me fat.. I am serious.. I think the only person who think that I look ok is Brad.. *hugs* I hate being called fat u know.. I know I can do something about it.. but when I feel depress I eat, when I feel angry I eat.. when I feel Happy I eat, When i feel bored I eat.. haha and normally the wrong food. sigh.. I am going for Lipo SUcktion!

Well, think I should stop thinking and go jogging meow.. I know the doctor told me not to do anything to strainous.. So if I happen to Die out there.. Just wanna let My family knows that I love them lots and I woove BRad so much too... lol.. *hugs*