Ok.. I got a SORE EYES again!! OKay! Dear God, PLease cure my eye, I promise not to wear contacts for a month. *prays*

So had a busy week! isn't it great! did so many things and feel so tired and when u slack it actually feels good! haha.. Yesterday had a photoshoot for AsiaGolf Singapore ( I think ) Had lots of fun.. Pretty tiring though.. From 1pm - 5pm.. It was pretty posing though although I sucked at it!

Went to work straight after the shoot.. Work is getting fun maybe cos I start to know more people.. But the getting there part sucks big time. have to change bus twice.. Been slacking with exercise these days! Must get back into it later after dinner.. My eye sucks.. I want a new eye.. :(

B to the O to the R to the I to the N to the G!

B-O-R-I-N-G

Meaningless life.. Go out to do something? Meaningless.. Everything feel so meaningless to me these days.. Everyone pisses me off no matter wat they do. BEing so super Sensitive and Over reacting to things.. Maybe I am lonely.. Doing stupid things that don't satisfy me.. Oh well.. Enough of me being negative let's see the positive side of Jiali.

Had a pretty good afternoon yesterday.. Went out and had lunch at MOF hmm yummy.. and then went for a massage that I have been longing for! Nice nice hope it lasted forever... hehe.. then went window shopping at Orchard.. Pretty stoned.. maybe just feel tired and sleeping at 4am the night before doesnt help.. LOL.. oh wells.. its all fun and games.. Read 31 comics in 2 days! woohoo record! Slam Dunk Rocks Rocks ROckS!!

Ester present is still on my bed and frostee loves it.. lol.. Oh my date on Tuesday! Hmm.. It went ok I guess.. He is cute.. cute... cute.. Just have to love guys in shirt.. But hmmm.. I dunno.. just see wat happens.. Feel that there's no spark~ ermmm... Or maybe I am just hating, detest and not trusting men right now.. LOL~ wats new.. ? But why not take a risk? why not take a challenge? bah... Over it and done with. :) Thanks to u~~ :)

Anyway, can't wait for chilli crabs tonight! Sambal Stingray.. YUMMMMMMMM.... quick quickk 8pm quick quick!! I love me

Cheerios.

Hmm.. I got healthy eyes! :) But I can only "officially" wear contacts next month.. *roll eyes*

I am so tired and I got a date tonight.. So boring yet so exciting.

Don't really know if i am looking forward to it or not..

I guess I should.. Shall enjoy myself and not worry~

Good luck to me.. ;)

A Song about How I feel..

挑一張耶誕卡寫上滿滿祝福的話
Picked out a Christmas card and wrote down my good wishes for you.

地址寫的是心底 你能不能收到它
The addresser is from the Bottom of my heart, can you receive it?

天有點冷 風有點大 城市甯靜而喧嘩
Its a little cold, the wind is blowing strong, The town is quiet yet noisy

這一個冬天我得一個人走回家
I am walking home alone this winter..

問自己習慣了嗎 沒有你每到夜裏回聲變得好大
I ask myself if I am used to this, Without you it seems so empty.

有沒有什麽好方法讓寂寞更聽話
Is there a solution to subdue loneliness?

你最近還好嗎 是不是也在思念裏掙紮
How are you recently, are you also missing me?

你說會記得我 還記得嗎
You said you will remember me, do you still?

你最近還好嗎 忙碌嗎累嗎 心還會痛嗎
How are you recently? busy, tired? Is your heart still aching?

如果真不得已忘了我 快向快樂出發
If its forgetting me that you choose, then hope you are sailing towards Happiness

有再多的牽挂都已沒有權利表達
Even if I miss you deeply, I have no rights to express it anymore

舊情人給的問候比陌生人還尴尬
A regards from your ex is even more awkward than from a stranger.

昨天遠了 明天還長 回憶模糊但巨大
Yesterday was far, Tomorrow is still a long way, Memories are fading yet still clear.

這樣的深夜眼淚要怎樣不流下
How can tears stop flowing in a night like this?

問自己習慣了嗎 沒有你每到夜裏回聲變得好大
I ask myself if I am used to this, Without you it seems so empty.

有沒有什麽好方法讓寂寞更聽話
Is there a solution to subdue loneliness?

你最近還好嗎 是不是也在思念裏掙紮
How are you recently, are you also missing me?

你說會記得我 還記得嗎
You said you will remember me, do you still?

你最近還好嗎 忙碌嗎累嗎 心還會痛嗎
How are you recently? busy, tired? Is your heart still aching?

如果真不得已忘了我 快向快樂出發
If its forgetting me that you choose, then hope you are sailing towards Happiness

你最近還好嗎 是不是也在思念裏掙紮
How are you recently, are you also missing me?

你說會記得我 還記得嗎
You said you will remember me, do you still?

你最近還好嗎 忙碌嗎累嗎 心還會痛嗎
How are you recently? busy, tired? Is your heart still aching?

如果真不得已忘了我 快向快樂出發
If its forgetting me that you choose, then hope you are sailing towards Happiness

I am ANGRY.. lol
It's OUrs!
LOL! Natasha tell us to look In love.. We end up burst out laughing..
Gonna Kill the Culprit behind all Hang overs!
Nah, I am not really LIcking the Gun.

Scary Shadow behind But I look Good it in!

Let's all just pray for a great guy lost in a Motor Bike accident in Australia. idknow his for long, but I feel so sorry for his friends and family that lost him, cos his a fun oving pers

Life is short, we got to move on for better things. That's what I am doing right now. Why close the door to chances and people who wants to come into my life? I should not stay in the same place and wait for him to look back anymore, cos he won't.. so why bother.. :)

Ester is sick! Hope u get well soon babe! Haven't talk to you all day today... so weird.. lol.. Anyways, Had a great time on Friday night at the Cow boy dinner.. Me and Ester dressed up and got Drunk ass~ How not to? We had Free flow of beer and the worst thing is we have Tequilla!.. I swear we are having 2 or 3 shots at a time, Yucks!! Had lots of fun though..

After the Dinner we went to the bar at the club, had a drink then Judy drag us to a Ah neh Bar.. I nearly cry... Well, I cried that night.. but not because of the bar.. lol.. Its ok never again, will I shed a tear for him.. I will give my love to the next person who deserve it.. :) Its easier to be said than to be done.. But I can be strong.

I must start living for myself. :)

Hi peeps.. I ave a series of high and lows these few days.. hmmmph.. Well... Let's start with Heritage Challenge. It was a great course, But i played so shitty.. I am so angry with myself.. :( BUt I somehow manage to win 3rd prize.. and the prize is Ridiculous.

I won a set of R7 P-3 Iron 3 n 5, PING G5 Fairway woods, Cleveland Driver and a Ping G5 Putter (freaking loveeeee it).. Then I got Lucky Draw 38th prize. a pair of Golf shoes that cost $300++, a Rescue wood and a 29" JVC flat screen tv.. haha .. It took us lots of effort to bring it home.. GOD!! It's all fun and games.. and the last surprise. I got a Sunglass Sponsor from Sundog. How awesome it is.. The glassses look so Greatt! OMG.. I was so so so so happy.. its Ridiculous!

The next day was a little sad but I guess it ended alright.. Started off shit though I am telling u! PLayed Golf this morning again.. My Putter was awesome.. Love in first putt, U know wat i mean? lol.. Apart from that I think I know wats goig wrong with my swing.. bah~~~ Stupid Game.. :)

*I was crying in my dreams, N its all because of u*

Haven't receive my Birthday Present from Brad yet.. where is it? *pout*

Been tired, well its 2am of course I am tired expecially after the things I did today. Woke up 7am in the morning Jogging, Practise, went to work.. Very fruitful day.. :) Very tiring.. haha but its ok.. I want to be better than her. I can if I put my heart to it.

Still missing Brad, but its ok.. I think he have totally move on already and I should too.. No, :" Maybe he will call" or "Maybe he will SMS me" cos he will never, and I know it very clearly, who am I kidding. I am glad that he is alot happier now though.. Why be together when your partner is not happy? Well, its not partner anymore cos its been nearly 6 weeks when we parted. I know very clearly that, things will never be the same.. We can't go out to have dinner, or partying or even catch a movie... Its just so hard.. Tears will probably always roll down my cheek, that's how much I love him.. N I always will but I just need more time to get myself back to reality again n again.

I never fail to look around into places we always go to, every corner in Clark Quay and even the taxi stand.. Maybe I could take a glimpse at him and I will be happy.. haha nope.. I think I will just bring me more pain and sorrows... At this point of time Ester would probably so angry and dun wanna care abt me and wat I am saying.. haha. I just can't help how I feel right now, especially when I am PMS'ing..

But from today, I am giving up .. No more waiting for his calls or sms.. No more trying to find out if he is well or happy. He is just a friend? Can I think like that? Will he still treat me like one? Will he still enjoy my company? At the end of the day does saying all these matter? Does he know my pain that I am going through? Is it worth it? I might be better off shedding tears for Ester for taking good care of me and I keep thinking negative.. Feel bad for her efforts.. I am stronger but sometimes I just want some room to cry. I am silly I know. Truth hurts and its wat Ester always want me to see and I refuse to believe it and its time to face to truth..
I wanna wake up and be a better person and strive to be better. Not living for anyone but yourself.

Anyway, put the sad things apart. I get a invitation to TMCC Heritage Challenge.. its a great event. Om's might be able to get me a free Lasik and Golf is going pretty good.. :) I am determine for Ester to be my FHM manager.. lol.. can lah~ ^^ Ester buying Dim Sim this week.. I dun care :p

Its kinda sad how things turned out the way it is.

Is it me? or is it the other party? I believe that both plays a part.

How can someone forget another person so easily, its amazing how people can just move on with their live so easily, while some other people just stuck in the rut.

I am not saying that I am stuck in a Rut, I am just trying to say that you know.. Some people can just take it so much easier than others.. why? I believe its because that person have been playing with another people feeling and just don't really love that person at all. Does it make sense? maybe.. :)

Oh well, anyway.. I am use to be in a single life now, I am glad I have Ester and sisters to hang out with.. But I have been so unlucky.. Been sick sick sick.. its Terrible.. I have an Ulcer on my right eye and the doctor say that I can never wear contact lens again.. haha.. Think I need to go for Lasik soon.. So good bye glasses and Contacts! :)

I still missing him sometimes, once in a while.. But I dun think he will feel the same way. But its ok, life is never fair and I understand. I am glad that he is enjoying life now and having fun. Well, I must say that I am doing the same.. Meeting new people, having fun and looking forward to new stuff.. its all good..

Gonna go Batam on Thursday.. Can't wait!! :) go eat seafood.. yummy in my tummy.. Friday gonna to meet Omi for dinner, maybe can ask him for free Lasik... hehe.. Wat else... hmmm.. Deryne Birthday on Wednesday.. N i am sure there will people who want to date me during the weekends! hehe.. Oh well.. ciaoz.. :)

Actually I just learn to hate you more everyday. Sad but it Helps :)

so there you go, I HAte You

Ok I am lazy.. Mainly because I wanna be happy! Writting sad things doesn't help does it!

I tell myself that I am not going to let sad things pull me down everyday. I am gonna pick the positive and happy things everyday, be thankful and be happy. I guess that is how happy people be happy right.. :) *smiles*

Time heals all wound, and I am definately getting better each day.. well.. with alot of help of course and you guys know who you are who have helped me through the tough time. Work sucks suck suck suck big time. Boring working with people who are younger than me and just B-O-R-I-N-G! Oh well, at least I am earning some dough.

I need to start learning how to differentiate the good people and the bad people. Its so hard too judge people man, who's really nice and who's not. Who is worth knowing and who is not.. So confusing.. Oh well.. *prays*

Been learning how to adopt to being Single and I think I am doing Great. Keeping myself occupied and nearly died every night from being so tired. Which is good.. But everything I do feel so meaningless.. haha.. But they are not.. u know wat i mean.. hmm.. haha. I am so weird. I am missing him... When I talk about him I think I will still cry.. But I learn how to block him off.. I feel so bad deleting him off facebook and messenger, but I am just not ready yet.. Seeing him finding new girls and stuff, I have no right to be angry anymore and jealous anymore.. What happen again.. haha.. *rebound* it sucks.. But I am feeling great now so dun worry about me! I am POSITIVE lah!

Look at the people around me who love me.. I feel great and contented.. So much happiness.. Sentosa was great had such a great time with Wen hoped Rui was there.. but oh well. :) Next time for sure! Love ya all..

*Rebounded*