Wow its July already... hmmm... Have not blog for like nearly 2 months.. lol..

The fact that I am so engross in the PSP games and I just can't be ass to switch on my computer.
Hmm Nothing much happening in my life I suppose..

Except that Jiawen new name is Yen Ling now.. Yen ling a ling a ling, ling a ling a ling.. So cute ^_^... Oh Yer, Start working at Urban Fairways now. Pretty good money and I do enjoy it.. I mean afterall its golf related.. The only shit thing is that its very far.. I mean its good to not have to answer to customers as I am just entertaining them.. Not like waitressing, I pretty much have to put on a happy face when I am not and I have to cope all the complains when I am not the one cookinG? yer, Done with working with FnB.

Wat else.. hmm... Golf is pretty shit at the moment, just can't get the swing right.. sigh sigh.. Oh Exciting news though. .I am getting my new Nakashima Irons, I already got my driver, they rock my world. .They are really good man..

Love life.. hmm... still pretty much avaliable, kinda use to being single now.. Really enjoying it and so carefree.. so many choices.. Right now I just have to focus on Golf anf getting stronger.. Well, I need to stop getting fatter.. sigh.. Yes I am FAt... I don't understand, why my life is always revolve around my size and weight.. why? WHY? I mean if i have a choice, do u think I want to be fat? NOOOoOooo.. I do more excerise than normally thin girls who are born lucky and don't have to do a fuck to be skinny.. How is that fair? how can human beings be so judgemental? I am sick of all these shit.. as much as I keep telling myself that I must love who I am and I can't help wat I am.. But ppl just have to rub it in and demoralise me every single time.. Whst's wrong with the world? Are they happy criticising ppl? Is it that fun?? I don't see a point, I don't think its fun either..

Oh well, enough of the unhappiness. Life goes on.. I think I am just feeling sick right now.. That stupid medicine that I took is just crap, make me feel so groggy.. its like a hang over with no alcohol.. gosh.. =_=" CLubbing is boring to me now, maybe cos I have been there done that and I hate being hang over...

I have been thinking back the past.. The time I have been with my ex's... Brad now have a new GF... N fuck the shit when he says :" I just like being alone." Fuck off.. It just makes me feel like a bad GF.. Moron.. It's not like I still have feelings for him, he wasn't that great really. we don't really have anything in common.. Love is blind I suppose, until u take one step back and look at it carefully.. then u realise how foolish one person can be.. But hey.. I learn and I moved on.. Just pissed off and don't understand why can't be friends after we break up.. Cos he thinks his so good and I am still all over him? Bleah~ I have to admit that I was happy when I was with him though.. Just the way he ended off just felt like he giving me excuses cos his sick n tired of me already, N ready to find a new girl..

Man are all like this isn't it.. Break up today find a new girl the next day. Give the nickname that they gave their GF to the next one straight away. Sad so sad.. There's no true love anymore.. its rubbish rubbish rubbish....

OK I am talking alot of crap... haha ciao ciao..

Cheerios.. :)