So... its Daddy's birthday today! Happy Birthday Dad.. We love ya!

We had lots of fun and took lots of photo! :)

Had dinner at Edagawa a Japanese Teppanyaki restaurant at Central Food was good.. :)
But I think I am so jealous.. I think.. Seeing my sisters having someone to love and someone to love them back.. Its a silly thought isnt it? But I think its just harder when u have sisters and they just influence u one way or another..

I mean I can get one right now.. But I am picky... As in... I want the best and I got certain standards and all of them don't meet it. N i dun wanna settle in for something I dun like and feel disgusted with.. Ya feel me?

Its all so confsing and complicated.. I dun even know why I am feeling like this.. I mean.. being single is great in a way.. but.. do i prefer to be with someone? Maybe I am just going through a phase.. I need to put my concentration all back on Golf..

ANyway, Last Saturday we went to Movida, me, BElinda, Gavin and Adrain.. The Vodka is Soooo Nice! yummy.. Didnt get too drunk.. but I had lots of fun. Music was great. company was great.. I had fun~ =)

Lets go back to golf.. I didnt take part in the HSBC qualifier.. I know I want to.. But I don't want to.. I wanna be able to do it and have a good chance to make it and shine before I do it.. Does it Make sensE? I wanna get in and Impress.. I think right now thats the best solution i can think of. I am 22.. 23 this year.. I have a thought.. If i can just play a big game.. Make the qualifier.. then there u go.. I will be a star then I will be ready to face the tour circuit. its just a thought.

I have a long way to go. I am struggling with my swing.. I hate practising short game.. and I am looking for something that is missing in my life.. Why do I always not get things that I want.. Or things just doesnt go my way. .Or should I say.. I always think so Naive.. always thinks that everyone is nice.. they are not going to do me harm. they think like me.. But I am so wrong.. it doesnt work that way..

I wanna be nice.. I really do.. But how do u define a nice person? how can u show them that u R? But why do u need to show them ANyway!? so many weird questions runnign through my head.. People say things and dun do it. People do it but dun mean it.. People Mean it but take it for granted. its a vicious cycle.. A sad sad world..

I will devote my time into golf.. Put myself in a little bubble and get away from everyone.
That's super not me.. But i think its the only way to keep my focus.. I hate people.. I hate them.. I hate them all.. Stop hurting me.