I am trying very hard I swear. We just past our 1 year Anniversary.. I love him so much

I am feeling so much pain right now. Tears can't stop rolling down my eyes.

The flowers sitting by my bed doesnt help.. Its the first time He got me flowers.

I am so sad.. But I know this day will come. Not this soon though..

I still wanna spend my birthday with him, Christmas and His birthday.

Its all gone now.. Vanised.. I got lots of happy memories.. N I Can't stop loving him everyday.

I really dunno wat is wrong, I am sorry anyway.

I miss you so much already.

I wanna see you and hug u.. U know I love my cuddles.

I am glad I cooked for you last night. Baby.. I truely Love you.

I got this song stuck in my head.


If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
but I know you're here with me now
We'll make it throughand I hope you are the one I share my life with...

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it , I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it,I dont understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way I can stay in your arms?